Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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George Baker
George Baker

A passionate esports journalist and community manager with over a decade of experience covering competitive gaming across Europe.